Kyria

Tonight i talked to the most beautiful girl in the world! Believe it! She is my best friend :-D I do believe i am in love with her... i suppose that makes it public, not that it was a secret, i just can't hold it in any further. My God has truly blessed me with her, she draws me to Him, in my eyes she is like the centerpiece of His creation's beauty! She loves Him more than anything, her worship is true and I would give my world to worship Him beside her as long as I live. She has the voice of an angel! and I would love sing every song i sing in harmony with her. My heart breaks that I cannot spend every moment with her, but our separation gives our love more purity and faith that God will bring us together. Time has been taken and will not continue without us growing closer and closer. I often find myself dwelling on what i should do next to prepare for our future... so much that it probably hinders my life's progression. I will work on that, less thinking more acting. I get so excited planning though, but not seeing myself move forward brings me even more pain. To know that I'm moving closer to being able to support and take care of her would probably save me from some of the sadness I experience. I am a little over emotional. Ok, make that super emotional. I'm working on that. BLARG! I am crazy about her! I can never say enough to show her what she means to me, in fact i get so excited I can't even think straight enough to say anything but ":-D!!" I even cry sometimes... you can make fun of me, I don't care, I'm in love. I have said it in the past, to other girls, but this time is so increadibly different that I know it's ordained by God. When we first started talking I was going through what was the hardest time of my life. I was at college, I had turned my back on God, and got hooked on drugs... I ran out of my new medication and went into a terrible withdrawal, I could only get myself out of bed for about five hours out of the day, I was terribly depressed and broken, I wanted so bad to be free from what I had gotten into. I don't think she had any idea what was going on, I didn't want her to think badly about me. Anyway, I knew she was a pretty hardcore Christian, and everytime I talked to her I couldn't help but talk about God, even when I had given up on Him. But once I had reached the bottom, her words spoke straight to my heart, her faith was everything to her, she made me want God again. I poured my heart out to God and he gave me the strength to talk to my doctor and make the right decisions to get out of my mess. I got out of college and joined a ministry school so that I can get credentialed to be a pastor and serve God with my life. Many times when she and I talked I felt God lay something new on my heart. My relationship with God has never been stronger than it is now, and Jocelyn has been a huge influence in my life. She is so loving and kind it only reminds me of God and his love for me. I really would love to continue but I don't want to bore you with my exitement and I don't want to embarass her at all :-D!! Jocelyn, I love you.

frustration

GARR... I have spent the whole day trying to put music on my blogger thingerdo because my best friend had music on her profile and i thought it was an amazing idea. she used project playlist so i went went on the project playlist website and started a profile. so i used like five different "widgets" that would put it on my profile but everytime i put it on there the page didnt have enough room for the little playlist window and wouldnt even put little scrolly bars on it so it was just cut off and you could barely see any of it... so then i went on imeem and found out their window was about a hundred pixels smaller and i would be able to fit that in the left side over my blog, so i spent an hour or so figuring out the songs i wanted on here all to find out when i was done that once i put the thing up that they decided the songs would only play for thirty seconds. that annoys me. and will probably annoy you if you listen to it. im leaving it up for now so you can see my frustration but hopefully that good friend of mine can help me out and i will have something nice to listen too.

since im bothering you with stuff that annoys me, someone just walked in and pointed out that i misspelled JUNKCYCLE, and it should go JUNKSICLE... the reason it is CYCLE is because my last name, spelled buyck, pronounced "bike". anyway i'm sorry to say that it even bothered me really, maybe you can just look at it as a little tidbit or me nicely expaining why i named my blog as i did

McDOUBLE!

TODAY I HAD TWO McDOUBLES! that is all

fishing

memorial day today i went fishing caught none but fun was had just corey and i on the lake onondaga we paddled in a friend's canoe good times friend says we can have canoe for one fifty ! good deal i should buy just to resell maybe that would be wrong idk

McBLOGINGTON

Yo, this is my blog, dog.